Survived 26 Music

26 - I just turned 27 and coincidentally this song's version of being 26 years old and my version of being 26 years old are right on par with one another. I don't think that age has anything to do with most of the personal lessons that we learn, but there are some basic trends, I think, to certain ages and this song covers the lot of it for me. At 26, there seemed to be a lot of highs and lows in your typical departments (friends, bills, future) and then extra almost to the point that it was too extreme to handle. You know, those hope killers. Balance was definitely non-existent, but that process has been a driving force in learning to create balance for myself. Things got rocky while rolling with the punches. All puns intended.

Caught in the Middle - One day I'm fine and one day I'm cracking my eyes open at dawn, unsure if my limbs are my limbs because they don't seem to be doing a damn thing. "Don't need no one else, I can sabotage me by myself." Behold the cherry atop my skillset. Circles make me dizzy and all I can hear is what you're telling yourself you didn't say. I know that I'm, "caught in the middle."


Hard Times - The video + lyrics say it all. I'm not even kind of partying 80's style through the hard times, but I am so, so dead set on making the best of them. With each new character flaw, fault, or failure I am optimistic that I'm capable enough to come through the other end of it. I don't pretend that hard times don't exist. I've learned the hard way that those things tend to catch up to me regardless of how well I thought I shook it off. Similarly to when I take vitamin c at the beginning of a cold, when it comes to life emotionally or whatever it is, Ive learned to start preparing to battle through it. 


Idle Worship - Oh boy, the tip of that iceberg. I've assigned this song to a lot of personal relationships. Specifically, relationships in which I have learned who has the real patience to keep my best interest and who doesn't. I've watched a lot of heads tilt, and bodies back away as I tried to explain to people how much I needed from them. I imagine there is a sinking ship-load of double standards assigned to each of us. One that has been assigned to me is that I'll have it all under control in the thick of it, even for those that I have stomached the worst of it for. I take responsibility for setting that standard and I've recently taken it back. In the middle of being dealt a bad hand please expect me to take time for myself, a selfish amount, and for me to be the epic mess that I'm trudging through, just like anyone else. I genuinely believe some people are capable of showing you that they can make it through the hard times and I have no idea where I would be without the people who have held on tight as I've gone through them. 

"Oh, it's such a long and awful lonely fall
Down from this pedestal that you keep putting me on
What if I fall on my face?
What if I make a mistake?

If it's okay a little grace would be appreciated

Much love, much dancing to this album now,