Me, Meet Me
The older I get, the more I realize how many layers I possess within myself. I feel like, at least for me, that I have always focused on getting to know others before learning who I am. Friends, family, people I meet; the more you get to know people, obviously the more you learn about them. You start to learn what band they go to when they’re happy, mad, or sad, or if they even use music as an outlet at all. You learn their favorite food, what makes them laugh, their favorite activities, movies, and music. It just comes up as you get to know others and start to care for them. However, about a year ago I realized that I knew a lot about my friends and family, but not a lot about me. It sounds crazy, because you would think that we are born knowing ourselves. I’ve always known I loved music, writing, and pretty much any type of art. I have a silly sense of humor that causes me to laugh until I cry at puns and corny jokes. Even after knowing all this, and living with myself for the past twenty-five years, I realized that I didn’t completely know who I was. Then I had a thought that if I didn’t know myself, how could I truly let others get to know me, and peel back the layers that I had never even noticed I had? So, at risk of sounding selfish, I began to spend more time with me. I wanted to find out how and why I reacted certain ways to specific types of situations, and how other peoples’ actions made me feel. Situations arose within the last year that aided in this adventure also. Times when I really had to stand up and assert myself, and stand up for those who I love in multiple situations. I still have a long way to go, but on my journey I have found out a lot. Something interesting that I have discovered is how similar I am to my astrological sign. I am not saying that your sign defines you, and there are so many other factors that make you, you. Even still, general characteristics of a Scorpio match me almost perfectly. Scorpios are known for hating conflict, but loving confrontation, for being very passionate about those they care about, and for speaking out when they feel it is most needed. While I am aware that there is more to a person than the characteristics of their astrological sign, I did find mine to be a very interesting tool through this whole process. Moving on, there are things that I have discovered about myself more recently that I never paid attention to before. I have learned that I normally have a very optimistic outlook on life, sometimes almost to a fault as I fail to see the realistic view of situations sometimes. Furthermore, if you are friends or family of mine, watch out, because I will not impose on you to tell me what is bothering you, but I will try my absolute best to make you happy again. Within my own life, and with those I care about, I tend to treat sadness, worry, and anger, as an infection that I must heal as soon as possible. I’m not one to sulk, and if I do get to that point, something really bad must have occurred. I still have so many other things to learn, and my hopes are that I can take everything I find out about myself to find ways to treat others better, and also to display the real me. So, what do you know about yourself? If the list is short, or seems incomplete, I challenge you to take a dive and see what you find out.